Just so you know reader
I don't write in any rhythm
It may be hard to read sometimes
I don't believe in grammar either.
How many times are we gonna do this?
How long is this going to go on?
I have nothing left to say
I thought that this would fix this, bit it hasn't
Its in my past unlike other things.
We have the same problem and you don't even know it****
...I must say its weird living in tampa again with out david, courtney, and Ashley. Very weird. When i was working full time at fossil and going to school full time, that exhuasted me. I had my friends at fossil but i saw them all day, so when out of work i invested all my time into my roommates. We were like family. They were my rock. My friends from fossil would invite me to go out to clubs and stuff and i would just say no. For one i wanted to focus my time on best friends. Second i didn't drive. I hate being a burden. I dont want someone to have to plan their night around me. It got to the point that they stop inviting me out. Thats it, they stop calling me.
When i moved to london, my best friends as well moved out of tampa. So when i came back to tampa they were all gone. The friends that i didn't try to make things work with became pretty much distant. I dunno if we are even friends any more. I don't talk to them and i don't know anything about them. Its wierd how that worked.
When with my ex the reason we broke up was because i didn't drive and my friends. Now i do drive and i have no friends ha and hes not around. Not that i want to be back with him, i think us would never work out no matter how attached we were to eachother.
I just find it almost surreal that my life went from insane drama filled to really empty almost. I wont go that far. Its just a very different vibe than what it was before.
I hang out with my roommate but she has a boyfriend and is very attached to him. Living in tampa and london me and my roommates were like family. I mean me and stacey hang out and talk but its not like im used to. I expect a lot from roommates. I know most people don't. But my roommates both in tampa and london were my best friends.
I am glad i have made my internet friends too and i have gotten a little bit closer to some of them. But when it comes down to i really dont know that much about any of them. I hope i grow closer especially the other fiveawesomegays haha.
I miss going to out dinners all the time most of all
I miss just hanging out and venting
I miss getting drunk with my close friends and singing out favorite songs
I suck at keeping touch. I almost feel like there is no one i can talk talk to about things. Besides a certain of course. but even then its weird because we don't talk on a day to day basis. I know thats my fault.
Other things make it difficult too certain subjects constantly in play.
ok sorry im done
I'll try to really blog
i blog better when im sad hahaha
im not re reading this sry for typos
